Pansees said that all men seek happiness and that every action of every man is with that motive. I respectfully disagree. But he did make a good point when he said that experience dupes us from misfortune to misfortune and leads us to death.

That now, is something I can corroborate with. If there’s anything I’ve learnt in the past few years, it is that happiness is just a perceived sense of ecstasy that we as humans tend to pursue. Milton in Paradise Lost knew that. He just didn’t tell us. From personal experience I have come to understand now that what we really quest after is peace and serenity and tranquility and quietude and dignity and quiescence and placidity, which, considering the present state of the world is amazingly hard to come by. We are too bothered with and shackled up in gathering material posessions and the percieved ecstasy we talked about. It is when our efforts go in vain and when we have lost something astoundingly huge that we understand the futility of it all.

Examples teach us little. No resemblance is ever so perfect that there is not some slight difference, and hence we expect that our hope will not be deceived on this occasion as before. To learn from experiences is to have learnt nothing and yet we still hope. We as humans tend not to adapt. Those who supposedly do know that they are making a compromise and to say that I am experienced is to know that I will have to brace harder for when the fall comes.

The past few months have been exceedingly kind in mentoring me. And yet the apprehension stays. Looking back, it would seem I was happier last sem with a broken spirit. The faint dazzle in summers and the decay since has probably made the transition from broken to that of a wounded spirit. Whether that is true or not, only god knows. In the meantime, I leave you with this…

http://www.anabaptists.org/places/dlm/dlm-698.html

PS: 'peace and serenity and tranquility and quietude and dignity and quiescence and placidity' might all seem the same word. Look closer